one fateful night

good afternoon.

welcome to the recollection of the night. yes, i'm going to recollect the whole night off my mind, as accurate as i could.

at 11pm, i was about to leave slam's room and head back to do my own laundry. i thought i should bid my farewell to eysc, who's camping at rooftop, mugging. in the end, he started talking to me about his "girl" problem. well, he likes this girl, whom, i think, did not like him back. well anyway, i can't be sure, can i? so i just simply encourage him and tell him to make his decision soon. i mean seven months of liking and chasing a girl without any fruit is really taking toll on him, especially his studies.

well, he left soon after. just when i was about to leave too, roy came with food. he drove to mcd and order some food for himself, prbs and sc. so i took my identity as the world's number one freeloader and fed myself with some fries and mayo.

we started talking about all sort of rubbish when the subject of eysc and his girl was brought up. i mentioned that passingly and suddenly the arguments started to break passionately. it's kinda obvious that all of us care about him and we really think that continuing in his path is really bad for him.

in the midst of our conversation, eysc came back. so prbs started interrogating him, getting all the juice out of him about what happened during v-day. it appeared that she is responding positively up to the v-day date they had together, after which, everything went downhill all the way until she really ignored him completely. so the interrogation revolved around this particular v-day.

so he told us his v-day story. he told us how he bought flowers and gifts and pasted them on her door at 5AM in the morning of that v-day. so sweet you know. that's probably what every girl would want to happen to them during v-day. i don't know lar. but if i were to like a girl and v-day happens to be just around the corner, i would probably do the same. my style would be slightly different though.

ah, let's divert a bit then. what style am i? well, i'm the kind who will buy some cheapskate gifts (well, it may be cheap, but you know, i'm not that rich, i can't afford expensive gifts like what some other guys could easily do--i have no wish to have a materialistic gf anyway) then put it in front of a girl's door and then knock and run. not because i don't want to see the girl or i'm coward or what. it's just my style. add a bit of mysteriousness to the whole thing. but i won't be coward that doesn't leave my own name there. unless i know for sure that the girl knows it's from me. you know something funny happened during my orientation dating game due to a nameless freshie. he gave a gift to his date target, yet he didn't write a name. somebody else then claimed that the gift is from him, and he got her. lame. but i don't want the same thing to happen to me, ever!

and you know what? i just learnt a bit to improve that method. when you run away, never wait for lift! lame, but true! never ever wait for the elevator, just take the stairs already! i wanted to give this girl a chocolate and i didn't want to disturb her because she's busy studying. everything was fine. the lift door opened and i was about to enter the elevator when she appeared and called me. cheh! stupid right? hahaha! i'm still laughing man!

moving on. that night, eysc told us everything. just then, it dawned on me that he's really quite inexperienced. no, i'm not saying that i'm experienced or what. in fact, talking about inexperienced, i'm probably worse off than most guys around me. but it was pretty obvious that he didn't have the wit to press on hard enough. sorry. you could learn it though. i think roy pretty much summed it, "today you grow balls." yes, congratulations! you've become a stronger man that night.

well, we encouraged him to talk to the girl there and then. pity him really. i mean, he got exam coming and he's still thinking about her all the time. he needed closure and we tried to give him one. but i think we're dumb enough not to prepare him enough. we told him that if the girl were asleep, he shouldn't try to talk to here, just casually ask whether she wanted some food or what, nothing more than that. the unthinkable happened though. the girl was asleep and eysc still asked whether he could talk to her. what happen next saddened pretty much all of us. she simply waved, closed the door and latched it.

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i will probably die. but he's strong. much stronger than me. we told him to talk to her today and settle everything once and for all. i hope you have your closure.
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after that, we had some talks all the way till 6am in the morning. one thing that caught me up was the story about this guy dm who is a big time player. but worse still, he goes after nice girls. i couldn't stand that kind of guy. the worst part is that he's currently dating mt, one of my block girls who is probably one of the nicest around as well. hearing what he did to girls in the past, this is really too much. i pretty much boiled over lar! but anyway, i'm not that close with the girl so i couldn't do much. sigh. i hope she'll be okay.
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that morning was the first time i checked my friendster after months. i decided to revamp parts of it and requested some of my hall friends to add me as their friends for the first time since i entered hall. friendstar held sad memories for me. but i guess, i've to go on. and i did. this morning, i visited my past and i realised that that past engraved in my friendster account no longer sadden me. time does heal i guess.
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should i sleep now? hmm. i shouldn't. i have a compelling thought right now. i feel like visiting someone. but i don't really dare actually. well. i should really get stronger.
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Q: what do you think of wenz?
A: we're just friends. there you got it. i seriously think you all are mad to think that i like her. but i know you all were joking when you all tease me about it. if you weren't then too bad! now i tell you already, so stop teasing me!!! next time you all want to spread rumour, it better be correct first!