first day of performance

i was so sian since the morning of the performance day. i don't know what's wrong. probably lack of sleep or (and) food. i was like sitting at one corner while the rest is chatting themselves away. there was another girl who was also doing the same as me, trying to study at one corner. somehow, i could empathise with her. it's as if i could feel what's going through in her mind although i'm not even close to her. i haven't even talked to her much before. in the evening, nearer to performance time, i caught her standing at one corner again, with a blank look. so well, i decided to talk to jw (that's her name). it was surprisingly easy to talk to her. i didn't try to find out what's bothering her, but i hoped i made her day slightly better that way.

well, the performance itself, wasn't nervous at all! surprisingly! i was like, well, we've done this so many times, let's just do it once again tonight! and yeah, everything went well, almost no mistake on my part, except for a half count during locking (old-school hiphop). what i heard was that all of us were doing things off-beat by a slight counting. it's probably because we couldn't here things properly on the stege. the music was soft for sure. oh, and for sure, the lighting screwed up for some parts of the dance, especially the beginning. apparently one of the choreos is very, very pissed off. that girl (she looks soft but she isn't, that i know) was threwing tantrums and vulgarities as she talked to the other choreos about how dumb the lighting designers are.

anyway, i was quite happy with the overall performance. in fact, my "sian-ness" was gone by the time the performance started. by the time my second (and final) dance item for the day started, i was practically a happy man. i just put everything into the dance. acting as dumb as possible for locking while at the same time trying to look extra happy (making me looked even more dumb obviously).

well, today, finally, i watched cheese's dance at its full glory. i must really say that her choreo is damn nice! impossibly beautiful. what's the name again? Der Ultimative Verrat (it's a German phrase for the ultimate betrayal /der ul-ti-ma-tiv ver-rat/). good thing i learnt one or two things about german from my dad.

today, i didn't see too many of my friends. apparently my blockers decided to go back early because they think we (the dancers) won't come out for quite some time (which was not true). we were kinda disappointed, but well, it's okay. kinda fun today acting like myself again. a friend of mine told me that i was very, very nice (as in attitude, not looks or what, which i obviously fail at) today. kinda surprised me really that it came from her.

what really made my day was the night when i reached hall back. you see, i've this one ticket left because my best friend managed to get ticket for himself without my help. so well, i kinda wanted to just give it away to anyone who needs it (and i'm sure a lot of us wants it). this morning however, i met my favourite dee-blocker (=P) at the bus stop. i asked her to go and watch, but she said she was quite busy with tests and what-not. kinda pity her, she got two tests this week and four the next. i hope she's doing okay with her study (ugh, now i feel guilty). but anyway, at night she messaged me that she might not be going and asked me whether she could get the ticket for her friend if i don't mind. well, i went to her room to give the ticket to her. guess what? we had a very, very, erm, fruitful conversation with her (i couldn't find any other words). i was very happy. she decided to go and watch me tomorrow (and that means today =P, argh, confusing). hey, girl, you don't know how happy i was. i rarely had the chance to talk much with you. only occassional breakfast or dinner time. or during fire drill when you stood beside me and then talked quite a bit with me after the drill was over. and maybe some other time when i was fortunate enough to meet you. tonight was definitely one of the best of those conversations. talked to you for half an hour. oh, and did i tell you that your hair is the best? it's so easily ruffled and it's very soft and smooth too.

thanks for coming, i really wanted to see you after today's (that would really mean today) performance. and no, you don't need to give me flower or chocs or what-nots (i told you i was joking about it right?). just being there would really mean a lot to me. you're one of my closer (quite close maybe despite the little time we spent together) friends. i hope you are really going to be there.

oh, and that would mean at least four of my closest friends will be there! oh, tonight i'm really going to perform superbly. if the first performance was my 95% effort, tonight's will be a 200% effort. i hope i could make you all proud this once. i don't have much things for you all to be proud of. so i really do hope that this one will be one of those few things.

going to sleep and enjoy my sweetest dreams now. all the best for later me!

P.S. all "today" means yesterday (unless when it doesn't make sense logically). oh, and the event name is DU2006.