04:16

i just finished bathing. didn't really know why it took me so long to actually went to bathe after finishing my game just now. oh well, i guess i'll post a short entry since i need to wait for my hair to dry a bit before i could actually slept.

cheer camp was crazy period. too stressful too. too bad i'm in for it. i wonder why i hadn't signed out of it yet. not that i have any other better things to do. but certainly, the prospect of spending my holiday leisurely on house md and other shows (like big fish) is lucrative. i'm getting amazingly reticent during training. it's a sign of disillusionment i guess. nvm, i'm in for another two or three months and that's it. i could relax for quite some time. enjoying life, and by this, i mean working my ass off to get a macbook pro by the mid of the three-month summer break. that would mean i have to save up $5000 from my work. sigh. i'll try anyway.

i have a theory, about blogging frequency. remember i wrote about blogging during exam before? when i tried to explain why people blog more during exam than after that (when we're supposed to be more free)? i have a continuation. during those period when you've lots of great things to do, you don't blog much. when you do new things that still interest you, you could spend hours on it. forget blogging! sometime you don't even sleep or eat! however, when things start to get boring, and yet you're still forced to do it, you got depressed. and suddenly you burst into blogging. i've seen this on myself and at least two other friends of mine (one very recent, one not so recent). i must say that it's consistent with blog addicts.

anyway, why are you people so stressed? no. wrong question. why are we people so stressed? i don't know really. but hang in there folks. we'll break through it. yep. pretty sure on that. c'mon, we've lived our 19-20 years in this world and survived, these are nothing. at the most, what can happen? quit hall? i guess? though pretty sure it won't go that far.

all the best production people. you guys must be working pretty hard now. and chingay. seriously, all the best for these two groups man. good luck my two apprentices! hope you guys learn how to use the force (by that i mean visual studio and sql server, lol) soon. don't be seduce by the dark side of the force (security ignorance, coding inaccuracies, and messy codes syndrome), they might be tempting, but they'll slowly rot you to death (like microsoft windows, for example, it must be killing the redmond guys for years now).

btw, vista is out in soc internal mysoc. wow. if only i've got a powerful computer to help myself to it. but no. my computer is too slow. forget it. nvm. a mac will be much better than my desktop anyway. (although a 17" macbook pro would practically be a desktop.)

oh, and my exam results is not as bad as i thought. relieved. gosh. i actually didn't get an F for my OS. it's a miracle really.

and i lucked in for my review assignment. 5 submissions to review for $473. not bad. though i won't be getting my pay till february, i guess i'll be getting quite a bit then, hopefully enough to cover my semester 2 fees and stuffs, plus my three-month break hall stay and plane tickets. hopefully with quite a bit left for my macbook pro. (ugh that would means i've to earn at least 2.5k, nuts!) how can 6 weeks of work earn me that much i ask you? especially part-time? gosh. high hopes, lower expectation and even lower results i guess. finger-crossed though.

okay, think i should sleep. there're lots of things for me to do tomorrow. my review started tomorrow night and i'd need to register for my next review assignment. pray i got it. that would be another $250. sigh. it's all about money this holiday. couldn't afford not to earn. otherwise i'd be eating dust during the summer break.

signing off.

p.s. if you read this kel, don't be so stressed up over things. life is never fair, but don't give up.