fallen angel

Your Life Path Number is 5

Your purpose in life is to live freely and collect experiences. You love life - new adventures, new people, new ideas. You are very curious, and you crave novelty in all forms. You tend to make friends easily, and you enjoy the company of all types of people. In love, you are fun and even a bit intoxicating. But you won't stick around for long. You are impulsive and spontaneous - which sometimes leads you to do things you regret. Sometimes you can be overindulgent with food, sex, or drugs. You have many talents, so many that you are often scattered and unfocused.

What Is Your Life Path Number?

how true. not really, but about 70% is true. up to you to decide which ones though. ;)

i feel empty. but i don't feel like attending seniors' meeting today. i guess i'm going to sleep. i'm seriously tired right now. a little dizzy too. i'm sorry guys. i'll just wait and figure out who are going to run for senior blockcommers later. some other day perhaps.

to bed . . .

I had a dream that i
was falling from the sky
At 90 miles an hour
I was bound to crash and die

it's still playing in my head. doesn't stop. won't stop. it's always a wonder to witness people in love, isn't it? all the signs of their lives are geared towards love. from the association you have with certain people, to your blog entry, to your msn signatures, to rumours that fly around you (and that special someone). i just found out that somebody likes somebody today. suspected, yes. but not until i read the proof for myself in writing by that person herself. (note the wording, it's 'like' not 'love', i just find synonym for what the person actually wrote in her blog, and love wasn't one of them, unfortunately, so i shall not assume.) ah, should send her that image i saw yesterday. pretty damn cool image of a blackboard with a love sign and an arrow. unfortunately you have to pay to get the full-sized picture. i may as well do it myself man. only need a camera, a blackboard and chalk. i believe my secondary school still had blackboard. no, even my jc also have blackboard i think.

omg, i can't sleep already. was just try to see whether my sec sch website is accessible. and it is! and i can't stop reading. it's so lame! wth! oh, i can't cut and paste most of it because it's in flash.

okay, here is an FAQ number 2 to a newly launched programme (similar to ip). let's called my school A okay?

2. Why are you implementing this new programme? (Is it because A had lost ground to the IP schools?)

Given its many strengths and weaknesses, A has always been a school of choice for the Catholic community and beyond. The fact that EDB has invited A to set up an international school reflects the recognition accorded to an A education. However, A needs to look ahead and consider how it can remain relevant to the needs of our young as well as faithful to its mission. We want to better prepare our young people for the rapidly changing and globalising world. The programme is a carefully thought out and comprehensive response to the challenges ahead.

i guess that whole chunks simply meant, okay, they got ip, we need something else to make us look good, so let's come out with a fancifully-named programme. oh, yes, the name of the programme is quite fanciful. in fact, i like it! :D

WTH! this one is outrageous!

16. Is A turning co-ed? Why is it not when you are prepared to make the [int'l school] co-ed?

A will remain an all-boys school . . . (lot's of junk here) . . . If [int'l school] is successful as a co-ed school, who knows, A may also turn co-ed in the future.

hey, do you find that contradictory? 'will remain' follows by 'may also turn' co-ed. make up your mind. seriously, A as co-ed? outrageous! some of us were still derailed when we heard that the old boys' association is buying IJ(TP)--not sure whether true or not, it's just rumours. and then we heard that some of the IJ(TP) girls actually went to A for some classes, and vice versa. hey, hey, i know that some of you old boys (the really old ones) are married to IJ(TP) girls (who are also very old now). but then again, turning A into co-ed? i have nothing against IJ(TP), seriously, i'll make that clear first. working together is fine, since both are catholic schools anyway. my previous secondary school and primary school was a christian school as well, and did quite a lot of work-along with other christian schools. but A had been great because it was all-boys! we had our fun. the kind of fun that won't be possible with girls around. seriously, poling and stripping is R(A) and not suitable for girls between 12-16.

oh, and i'm scared for the sec 1, sec 2 students. i just figured about the CX (Computer Science) programme. all sec 1 and sec 2 are to enroll in this:

Sec 2 CX Syllabus
Basic Networking
'C' Programming Language
Robotics

i think they just gonna die! C!? hello!? you ask a engin year 1 undergraduate whether they can do C programming well? nay! very few can give a straight yes answer. and you are teaching C to what? 13 year olds?

oh, i was almost happy. i thought Bro Mike is the new principal. but he isn't yet. never mind. soon i guess. after this principal retires (still the same principal as mine last time), i'm pretty sure Bro Mike is going to take over. it's really not looking good. it's a catholic school all right, but the number of Brothers are like 2 or 3 only. ah, and of course, the infamous Bro Paul Rogers are now at CJC. how lovely. CJC is really climbing up the ladders now. he's a real good principal. very strict though.

really good reminiscing about sec school days, when no worries seem big enough to shake you from your onward march, to collide heads on with adulthood. no, my association wasn't with the brightest, like when i was in hc. it was so much more fun when you've friends from crescent, st pat's, st nicks, ij tp, ah, and less fun, scgs. well, anyway, it's been great spending some years in A. the reason why i'm a little unhappy right now is how the school is turning in the past few years. my class was a darned united group of ordinaries, extraordinary in the things we do. but now, it's turned into a group of posers and smarties (either you look like nerds, or you look like acs guys). the very group of people that we hated. oh yes, boys schools rivalries were strong too. we don't like chinese high boys (and they don't like us too, ah, old days, before hc, changed all my perspective then), we though ri boys are a bunch of smart asses (hey, give us a break, we were very young then, no worry, you aren't that bad after all ;)). above all, we hated acsi boys. oh yes, still do, btw. if you were just in acsi for 4 years, that's fine. if you were in acjc for 2 years, that's fine too. the worst of the bunch is the 6 years straight acs education. hahaha! like roy, right roy? just kidding, you are one good friend, although still poser! d:

ah, the good old days of mixing up with all the malays and indians. my class were like half chinese only. we had fun making fun of each other. we had fun with all the racist jokes. sigh. reminded me of the fact so bluntly pointed out by our malay physics teacher at the end of sec 4 (our lovely physics teacher). 'here, you all can make all sort of racist jokes and everyone laughs with you. but after this, when you go to jc and beyond, don't do it anymore. not everyone is as open as you guys.' which is so damn true. well, of course some people are really too much, posting hate racist messages in their own blogs. we did it for the fun of it. for bonding too.

and yes, next year, some of them are going to join us in nus. hope against hope some of my classmates will stay in kr.

hey, to all the schools i meantioned earlier, don't take any offense if i sort of attack you in any way okay? i seriously don't have any problems with you all. we are all adults right now. let all those things that happen in the past become jokes today.

oh, and i remembered taking RME A class with one of the nicest teacher around. hmm. RME A. why did i take RME A? i should be in RME B. A is for Catholics and B is for non-Catholics. A students must only go for A whereas B students can go for A or B. a few of us B students went to follow RME A. it's quite fun really. except for that gross video of abortions (yeah, i think every schools ended up playing abortion videos at one point or another).

cca was fun too. i had a 3 months active/9 months slack cca cycle. the 3 months are really crazy. everyday, we'd go to ngeann poly to work on our stuffs. that was sec 3 of course. we got better equipments in sec 4. it was fun when you have no leadership requires out of you. really, being geek is really much more fun than leading a bunch of people around.

history class was the bomb! with Miss Lee Siew Lian around. wahlao! she's best lar! you can't find a dirtier teacher than her around. well, dirty for sec sch standard of course. in fact, you don't find anyone as outrageous as her nowadays. sigh. then of course there was Miss Ong, my form tutor. she really loved teaching boys. but in the end, she fell out with our principal due to her liberal teaching principles (she didn't really follow O level course, but she really taught us much more useful things that exam smartness). she shifted to nanyang girls after we graduated. Mr Sirhan, lagi best. dirty plus funny plus love balls (as all physics teachers do, apparently) plus everything you'd want from your teacher. then Mr Chandra, the best chem tutor around. always taught us to do things our way and not follow instructions all the time. unfortunately for the juniors, he had retired now. of course, we had the super conservative, NCC officer maths tutor, Ms Ng (yes, a lady. it's uncommon for NCC officer, but she is anyway). her teaching is very, very, very syllabus-oriented. very strict too. but nevertheless, after two years, we really thought it wasn't that bad after all. she could be fun at times (read: very rarely).

let me try to recall the name of my ex-classmates. let's see. sean (of course, how can i not remember), adrian (the nus rock-climbers), gary (NS, was in SAJC, too smart and short for his own good), vicky (NS, was in RJ, national discus thrower), ignatius (my next seat neighbour, in NS now, was in NJ), derwin (NS also, was in NJ, i'll always remember you man d:), kenneth (NS, don't really know where he was), nonis (NS, was in RJ, super fast runner), santhosh (lovely guy, presumably in NS, gave me The Little Prince as our parting gift cum birthday present), wilson (malaysian, NTU now), kelvin tan (i posted some bits of news about him, bad egg in the class, was in VJ, then SMU, luckily), jeffrey (NUS, staying at PGP now), edwin (my ex-roommate in jc, from NJ, then NTU, really nice bastard d:), omar (in NS i presume, was in CJC), hanis (super nice guy, but really lost contact with him), nicholas (the devout catholic, he scared all of us by his holiness, seriously), amadeo (indonesian, acjc--probably the only one, then no idea, probably smu). hmm, that's as far as my memory could go though. i probably missed about five to ten people (hopefully not that many). maybe one day we'll meet again. 2012. ten years anniversary dinner. make sure you all come.

being in this school had been the greatest thing that happened in my life up till then. it went unchallenged through jc. now, though. it seems to have met its challenger. kent ridge hall. the hall tore my life apart and stitch them back in all different places. still not sure for better or for worse, but it's been a great experience. an experience i still am not ready to let go. i still remember what gabriel said in his infamous blog, balderdash. he said that hall is a prison. that we're all inmates. but in which prison does the inmate loves the prison as much as us loving the hall, or the block for that matter? i'm sorry classmate, you're completely wrong this time around.

thank you for reading my rambling up till here. if you managed to reach this point, thank you for being a good reader and a good friend. not many people can stand rumbling of such a magnitude. in fact, i don't expect more than five people to reach this paragraph.

[censored]. i've decided to take this part off the blog. first censorship event. anyway, this is the paragraph that caused me to put the entry title. it's too revealing to share an msn nick my angel (as in angel mortal's angel) and i used for almost a year in jc to id each other.

anyway, cc, found your blog again. yay! (: i thought i've lost it.