a life of his own

Originally uploaded by ☆Mavi☆.

calmed by the ocean wide
restored by the evening sunset
swirling in sea of emotion
swimming in the depth of time

city set in motion
dies down as she sets
sets into the undying depth
of the universe

when will you shine again?
when will you engulf the darkness
of a deep, starless night
i can't wait for the
morning glory
when doubts are quenched
and another day comes
as promised by the One above

sunset...
marks labour's end
yet father time turns
and turns again
evening soon turns to twilight
twilight turns into night

age passed
what was etched into memory
faded away with turns of
sunset after sunset

memory becomes legend
and even legend fades
into the depth of eternity
that is father time

titled in retrospect: Timeless Sunset, written by me (April 12, 2006).

somehow sunset reminds me of time. that i just ran out of another day. and that dreaded day is coming closer and closer. the day when all hopes fail. when you've nowhere else to run. when life just sucks itself away from you. i wish time could just stop for eternity long. i wish i could remains in the limbo within my mind, the one i called my personal heaven. where no rain could fall and no amount of sadness exists. yet, every sunset i saw jerked my out into reality. that i couldn't stay there forever. and that reality is out there, and it doesn't wait for me or anyone else. take it or be taken. time doesn't give much of a choice. that's why i love doing things that i like doing now, cl, badminton, programming, surfing photos. because they grab me away from the painful reality that we called time. i can spend hours without realizing it when i do these things. time--the things we wanted most yet we used worst. how apt.
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Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

lines from a song i used to like. hate it now. i'm moodless. writing this without much emotion. i should read a book. hmm. TCP/IP Illustrated anyone? or maybe Intro to Algorithms? i guess not. though those books can really jerk me out of reality. but i guess, command supper will do the same job. hmm. good food. final years are cooking. some of them already started cooking from tuesday. i love to be part of this whole thing. sx, jl, jc, ys, kg, br, em. i ate with them just now. been a long time since i last laughed with all these people.

bleach today isn't bad. with that rainbow haze zanpakutou being released and all. script for 223 is out too. though translation is still on the way. i guess there are good things to look out for if you just looked hard enough.
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i just made myself happy by photoshopping this photo. i was looking through flickr when i saw a photo with similar effect. took quite a bit of experiment for black and white part, but otherwise, it's easily done. only need some careful selection. in fact, two transform selections did everything. plus experimentation with drop shadow effect created that luscious noisy shadow. argh, but the black and white part frustrates me. it's very difficult to find the right RGB mix for my channel mixer adjustment. at the end i settled for the best option i could get. and there it is. a nice photo-framed of Hall Annual Magazine committee. i so love photoshop. took my mind of things.