conflicting nature

usually, when i'm reading a book, i'll just devour as fast as i could, i just want to know what's going to happen next, and after that, and after that. it's been different with the last couple of books. i want to know what happens next, and after that, and after that, but at the same time, i also want to take the time to thoroughly enjoy and feel the flowing prose. it's been a completely different experience. it's exhilarating. currently, i'm reading this book by primo levi, titled the periodic table. no, it's not about chemistry, it's his autobiography, well, part-autobiography, part-philosophy. i don't even know whether everything he wrote down in that book is real or whether there's sprinkles of fiction about. but it's definitely a really good book. i've been reading it for a couple of days and i've only reached page ninety odds. that's so unlike me. usually, i'll finish such a short book in two hours or three (it's only 220 pages long).

finally, i'm rediscovering the meaning behind my appetite towards books.
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everyone in hall is feeling the heat now. everyone is busy with stuffs. some more than others. but nearly everyone is nearing the breaking points. a friend of mine is so tired from having not enough sleep and yet she still read her readings like crazy in class. she still did her chingay and cheercomm well.

yet another is having hard time with hall production, which is in shambles in my opinion. i just hope that hall production will at least manage to scrape through this year. it's looking further and further from success that i have doubts it'll manage to. but everyone knows i'm a hall production born-skeptic. this year especially. what with hall life as a theme. sigh. i want to say bs, but i guess i shouldn't. it's their hardwork after all; and some of them are actually my friends.

another friend of mine is also feeling the heat from academic stuffs and all the things that have went wrong in her life recently. i hope you'll get better soon.

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okay, time's up unfortunately. i'm going to distress myself by watching Blood Diamond in vivocity. alone. i guess, that's it then.