the life you have

i had a wonderful, wonderful day yesterday. everything just clicked back to normal. lol.

started the day lazily by waking up late in the day. if zhenyi didn't message me, i won't wake up anyway. after having a coffee-gulping session until 4am, who will wake up? so too my surprise, i saw cal already fresh awake when i went out from hall. wait. why did i go out of hall yesterday? hmm. did i even get out? yeah, i did. but i couldn't remember for what.

oh yeah, we had democratic possibilities project meeting with hara, gab, nat, and abdul. that wasn't after we had a guy's pillowfight (that didn't involve pillow but involved a taupok). figured a few funny things. i felt more at home in c blk yesterday after fighting with wenhao, denis, and lim shen. lol.

ah, dp meeting was great too. i couldn't focus though. i was thinking of a lot of other things. no, actually, just one thing. but it was huge enough to distract my all the way. we didn't achieve anything man! in fact, i was so distracted that i blurted out something i should have kept to myself. now, i'm so going to regret it. especially with such busy-bodies like gab, hara, and nat (sorry abdul, you just don't seem like the busy-body kind).

then watched A|X in mpsh. the starting wasn't bad, but it got lower and lower and lower. up until the scenario pieces, all was fine. once i started on, then that's it. was so funny. half way through, near the end, somebody replied my message about A|X at mpsh, 'hahas.i'm back!'. she's just at the back of the mpsh, just came back from library. ah, nvm. i guess this is another half-story that won't interest you. this one is just for me to know and the rest to read and figure out. d:

low point. zhenyi gave me my sea response paper yesterday. it was another B+. so sad.

then we had steppers meeting. [censored] sorry to say, but the way s (you guess which s) conducted the meeting really pissed me off yesterday. some of us had other things urgent to do. and it's just pure insensitive to joke around and whine and whine and whine, dragging the meeting all the way to 1110pm. ai was also pretty unhappy about it. nvm. small things.

then had a little less than an hour to talk to my friend. as usual, talked left, right, center. i don't really know what we talked about lar. i wished i had known her sooner. no offense. but she's like this guy friend you can talk to about things you won't talk about with your other guy friends.

anyway, our conversation made my day. i thought cheerobics was a peak of my happiness. but no, i realized i have lots of other little things that can make me thoroughly happy. i'm not ready to leave steppers behind, but i sure am ready to consider other things in life being more important than steppers.

life is funny, isn't it? it throws shit at you at times. but at others, it throws gold. it just that we think too much of the shits that we miss out the golds. shit happens. but who cares, when you left the hall, you'll only remember the sweet memories of hall. you're so right. looking back, only sweet memories of jc and sec school existed. memories of friends i had (would still have if i didn't focus too much on the shits of life).

"you don't want a girlfriend now, but that doesn't mean you really, really don't want a girlfriend. it's just that you feel that the time is not right with steppers and everything *selfish?*. but deep inside, you want that someone to talk to at the end of the way. someone to whine about the sucky day you had in training. you just want that someone who'll always be there without fail."

right.

anyway, old song. i've been listening to all my high-rated songs. and this song just popped right out of nowhere. really used to love this song a lot. still do now i guess, since i've been playing it on repeat for a few minutes. the lyrics is so apt.

Accidentally In Love
Counting Crows

So she said what's the problem baby
What's the problem I don't know
Well maybe I'm in love (love)
Think about it every time
I think about it
Can't stop thinking about it

How much longer will it take to cure this
Just to cure it cause I can't ignore it if it's love (love)
Makes me wanna turn around and face me but I don't know nothing 'bout love

Come on, come on
Turn a little faster
Come on, come on
The world will follow after
Come on, come on
Cause everybody's after love

So I said I'm a snowball running
Running down into the spring that's coming all this love
Melting under blue skies
Belting out sunlight
Shimmering love

Well baby I surrender
To the strawberry ice cream
Never ever end of all this love
Well I didn't mean to do it
But there's no escaping your love

These lines of lightning
Mean we're never alone,
Never alone, no, no

Come on, Come on
Move a little closer
Come on, Come on
I want to hear you whisper
Come on, Come on
Settle down inside my love

Come on, come on
Jump a little higher
Come on, come on
If you feel a little lighter
Come on, come on
We were once
Upon a time in love

We're accidentally in love
Accidentally in love [x7]

Accidentally

I'm In Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
Accidentally [x2]

Come on, come on
Spin a little tighter
Come on, come on
And the world's a little brighter
Come on, come on
Just get yourself inside her

Love ... I'm in love